They are wearing professional suits, carrying laptop and black briefcase, looking “smart” and talking fast. Well like everyone imagines, the job is boring. They go through client’s accounts again and again, test reasonableness in working paper………..yeah damn daunting. 

They have to find ways to cheer up themselves. And guess what? Besides sports and KTV, they gossip as much as they can. They find so much fun in it. Who’s the worst and laziest staff, who marries to a rich man, how managers compete to each other……..It happens in every company but it’s more severe in audit firm, because the nature of job is so fu*king boring.

It’s funny sometimes looking at these “professionals” enjoys gossip happily. I am not here criticizing just showing sympathies to them and of course to myself. Who knows, maybe I’m the one who most enjoys gossip.

Not a big deal really, we are human being, gossip, gossip, gossip, it cheers up our lives.

I’m wondering why you always have questions, they sounds wired sometimes. You just can’t get what I meant because I don’t know how to answer you.

I don’t like lie to innocent people. Now I answer your questions here. My BF? Haha…I don’t have one but I do have the same relationship with a girl. My BF relies on me? Nope…girl we rely on each other. So do you understand, it’s just love.

Of course I lied to you because……if I told you the answer more questions are coming to me. Imagining your innocent eyes with open mouth, nope, I’m not gonna tell.

I’m never afraid of intimacy but we are too close. I want to keep distance to you but I’m scared of loneliness. 

I want to feel your heart but at the same time I’m afraid to know you too much.

It’s such a conflict in my brain. Passion never last long but I hope it fades slowly.

The first time I was crazy for you made me wanted to burn myself and run to you. I wanted to know everything about you coz you were so mysterious. You are beautiful (I still think so now) which makes me can’t keep my eyes off your face. 

You are more than just beautiful so I thank God for bringing you to me.

Who am I talking about? You are definitely not a lesbian if you don’t know her coz she’s the sexiest and most unattainable hairdresser Shane in the famous lesbian drama TLW. 

Her expressive eyes, pouty mouth, and especially the deep low husky voice make her totally the most-wanted lesbian( I don’t know how guys think, maybe she’s seductive to them too). She’s skinny yet looks very sexy.

We don’t only judge a person’s by appearance, do we? It’s her look and personality attract me so much. She’s sensitive, loyal to her friends, willingness to listen and help. Am I talking about Kate or Shane? Sometime I confuse too. Well everyone in the earth of planet agrees Kate=Shane. Kate’s even commented that “one night stand is bullshit”. Who knows? Does it make us feel more interested and curious if Kate also sleep around with more than 1000 women?

It sounds fine with me only if she’s not my GF. I doubt if there is anyone dares to commit a constant relationship with her since all the girls are throwing themselves to her? We call it “lack of security” in Chinese. Yeah such seductive and adorable woman makes us “unsecured and scared”.

She’s unresisting, I always imagine if she comes to me and even look at me without saying a word, I will be freaking happy and follow her wherever she brings me to.

Yeah I love her, Katherine Moennig.

Finally I went to see Da Vinci Code with my father, which it’s long-awaited. I wasn’t pleasure while watching the movie coz the environment is so damn noisy. Regardless how old is the cinema, the point is phones rang everywhere. Okay, if the non-stop ringing is the maximum I could bear, then talking in the course of movie is so f**king annoying to me, which further exceeds my limit.

How these people can talked so loud like no others, do they know to respect the movie and the people surrounding? I don’t want to be discriminated but it is so true that it rarely happen in other countries that I’ve been to, even in Malaysia people switch off or vibrate the phone. So I really think it’s a problem from the society we grow up and the education system that we have been immersed for more than 20 years. Yeah RESPECT is hard to learn and I am still learning, hope others are doing the same way.

The movie was within my expectation less attractive than the book. I bet many people hardly understand it coz people here should have little history background for Christianism and Catholicism. People stupid like me has even believed the “truth” revealed by the book. Haha……… it reminds me a statement in the movie by Landan “ people don’t hate history, they hate their own history” Well for me I hate both.

Well how many times that I asked myself to make a blog, and I did it today. I need a reason for it. Why people make personal space themselves? It’s like a dairy but of course more than that because it keeps your favorite music, pics and articles by just clicking a button. How beautiful is technology...

So I decided to write dairy now since everyone saying I don’t even have short-term memory. I always reply like “I don’t keep trash in my brain” Does it true? Well well…I actually do want to remember all those wonderful and ugly things I did. I don’t want to regret while I’m getting older for not leaving anything to share with myself and friends.

Here we go….